For whom all darkness breaks…

Today is one of those musical days, where there’s nothing that you can do except play through your favorite playlists at full volume and try to find the song for what you’re feeling.

I’m not sure if those sort of days happen for other people but they do for me, and they always have. I have a hard time getting emotions or thoughts out without music. I know that sounds odd because I’m fairly good with words so it’s fair to assume that I can articulate exactly what is going on inside myself as easily as I can write a blog post about a wedding. But I can’t. I’m usually at a loss for the right words to give my feelings validity. So music has always been my helper.

My music is categorized into playlists with names like “Beautiful Melodies” and “I LOVE Singing”. And each playlist contains mixtures of songs that describe a feeling. Feelings are never experienced exactly the same way twice, which is why no one song ever fits perfectly. That’s why I build these playlists. Because each song is a puzzle piece and when played all together they can express the inexpressible. Nate mocks the way I have my library laid out but it makes perfect sense to me. And I can push play on a playlist and it’s therapy. The music says what I’ve been unable to, so I sing along as loud as possible, sometimes making myself hoarse, until everything that’s been trapped inside of me is able to be let free.

Sometimes it’s all about the words. Sometimes it’s all about the minor chords. Sometimes it’s all about an emotional and extremely long build that makes your soul rise along with it. Sometimes I need a lot of drums. Sometimes I need a lot of violins. It’s different every time.

Today is a drums and builds kind of day so I’ll be hoarse by this afternoon. Maybe violins, I won’t count them out just yet.

Music has always been my first love. Even though I’ve never been talented enough at it to make it my job. Nate, however, is wickedly talented. Nate is an insane drummer. I’m a mediocre singer. But somehow I was lucky to get to be a part of a band I loved for about 4 years.The more people we meet the more we get asked about the band that Nate and I met because of. For those of you who didn’t yet know, we were in a band together in college. And so today, since it’s a musical day and because we’ve been getting more and more questions about it, I figured I’d share some images from a few of our performances. I’m easy to spot because I’m the only girl (and the only person with just a mic) Nate is a bit harder to see. ;)

Images above by Lauranne Boyd

Image above by Lauranne Boyd

“…To brave the night with our brothers and help them when they fall, to keep a watch out with our sisters and hold them when they weep. To take our tired and our broken and carry them till morning…”

“…Call me your beloved and tell me I am beautiful to you, despite my many scars. So take me by the hand and help me try to understand that you alone are all I’ll ever need…”

-From our lovely songs. The second of which was the only one I helped co-write the lyrics on so it holds a special place in my heart.

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